So this last week has been a little up and down…more down than up….if only the nature walks I go on are more like that!!…Anyway, there has been nothing specific that has made it difficult, just feeling a bit homesick and finding the spanish challenging!….but thankfully I have a teacher who is patient!….towards the end of last week I was really questioning why I am here…those who know my journey, know that it is without doubt, God’s plan for me, but when in the thick of it and everything is so difficult because of the language,and I am so tired all the time it is really hard to work out how on earth I will be of any use to anyone, and really just wanted to come home!…I went to church on Sunday with a bit of a heavy heart, wondering what the point was, as I would not understand anything and it would just lead to frustration, but I prayed during the worship that God would speak to me during the preach, even through my limited spanish…..and He did!!…No i did not suddenly become fluent in spanish ( still waiting for that miracle!!!), but i was able to understand that the preacher was talking about the peace of God!…and the scriptures he used included Romans 5 v1: ‘Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ’; Philippians 4 v 7: And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”;2 Corinthinthians 4v8 ‘We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed, perplexed but not driven to despair’. There were more scriptures, but these really stood out for me!…particularly the last one…as I do feel crushed, and driven to despair but i know that is not the truth!..as I am still here alive and well ( no idea how, with some of the bus rides i have experienced!)….and it helped me to realise that the peace of God is with me…it is just I have a tendency to go on my feelings sometimes more than the truth!..it has taken a few ‘freedom’ courses for me to learn to not go on my feelings..yet i still do it at times! ( note to self: sort it out!!!). So after this wonderful revelation I would love to say everything is hunkydory, and i wake up, leap out of bed and have a wonderful spring in my step as i walk, but alas, this is not the case…but what I do have is the peace of God, that surpasses all understanding, and the knowledge that I am in the place that God wants me to be at this time, therefore, in the words of D:ream…’things can only get better’…I have hope that altho I am afflicted i am not crushed, and that altho i am perplexed ( a lot!!!), i am not driven to depair!…..sadly the same can not be said for my teacher!…please pray for her!!